I Am Weak, But God is Strong
Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ’s sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong. 2 Corinthians 12:10
Blood was everywhere. More than I had ever seen. Ever. We changed the bed sheets dozens of times in just a few hours in the Emergency Room. After calling for me to help her while at the house, we immediately drove to the hospital on a Saturday. Natalie received good care and the prayers of many people were answered and the bleeding stopped sometime one Monday after several examinations, and medical procedures. Thankfully, Natalie is now back home, though she is not yet “back to normal.” Even with the blood counts looking good, her stamina, energy, and endurance are nil at this point. Walking to the kitchen in our beautiful but modest home takes a lot of effort. A lot. She has left the house only 2 times in the last 3 weeks, and that was with my assistance (to walk from and to car) to see the doctor. Tears? Yes. Crying? Yes. Pain? Yes. Sorrow? Disappointment? Yes. Unimaginable? Yes. Life-changing? Yes. Praying? Yes.
I was certainly blessed to not leave her bedside for about 5 days. It is an honor to care for your spouse, even when they cannot care for themselves. Our church family has been so kind with food, care, and understanding when I could not be in other places. Thank you! We have a caring church.
After several years of pain, headaches, tiredness and more, and after many different types of doctors and medicine, we discovered earlier this year that she has a plethora of medical issues that have accumulated over time. We are treating, not only the symptoms, but also the source of the constant pain and tiredness. And then suddenly the ER episode mentioned above.
I am sharing all this (not for pity or an emotional response but) for a present-day description of the verse Paul wrote: “When I am weak, then am I strong.” It is in our weakness that we see the incredible power and might of God. It is in those moments of physical and emotional desperation that we see God in more close and intimate ways. It is when we cannot move, walk, talk, or when we are in constant pain that we can ether get bitter at God, or get better associated with God. “Don’t take your abilities for granted,” Natalie put on Facebook one day – “they could be gone in a moment.”
If us humans never had problems, why would we need the Lord? If you and I could handle life on our own, what good is it that we say we have faith? In trials and difficulties, we can be like Job. He kept looking to the promises of God. He knew “My redeemer liveth.” We could be like Paul, who continued to serve the Lord in spite of his physical limitations. Paul was not happy for the pain and suffering, but for the lessons learned and the close proximity of the Lord in those moments of physical need.
With every ability or inability – we can find ways to serve God. For our friends experiencing inability to move, stand, walk, put your own cloths on, wash yourself, or even feed yourself – be encouraged, you can still pray. You can still read the Bible, have it read to you, or recite scriptures you have memorized. God still has a plan for your life and a perfect will for the rest of your family.
When you are at your weakest – you can see God at His strongest! In your weakness you can become stronger – in the Lord. I am not strong in myself anymore. I am strong in God. He is my strength.
Are you in a similar situation? Hang in there. Keep looking to Jesus. Find comfort in the Word. In the more intense moments at the ER and later the hospital room, the Holy Spirit brought to Natalie’s mind Scriptures. In particular, she was quoting Psalm 18. Look it up sometime. There are many other things we learned from the Lord at the hospital and at home and are continuing to learn day by day. Natalie is still not able to get out of the house, attend church, or do even 2/10th of all the things was doing before. What if her energy remains low? What if her weakness remains amplified like this? We accept God’s will if this is the “new normal.” God will give us the grace to accept this condition and even thrive in the midst of this. The verse right before “When I am weak” is 2 Corinthians 12:9 which says, “And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”
Let the “power of Christ” rest upon you – in your weakness. We appreciate your prayers.